( Alarm hits first, eyes WIDENED as all he could do was WATCH, watch as the CHAOS UNFOLDED. Instinctively, his hands moved to the wheels of the chair, pushing back despite the fact that she was NOWHERE NEAR his line of fire, but perhaps it was simply out of SHOCK. And guilt. He’d caused this. He’d SNAPPED AT HER, because… why? Why had he snapped at her? Because she’d been rude? She was ALWAYS RUDE, especially to him. But as the STORM RAGED ON, the telepath couldn’t help but feel like, PERHAPS… this wasn’t about him. Not really. She wasn’t ANGRY AT HIM. This… this was something else. Something DEEPER.
And when she had finally EXHAUSTED HERSELF, when grief won out and the ANGER SUBSIDED, Charles slowly, carefully approached, eyes fixed on her, ready to back away at a moment’s notice, should she quickly take another violent turn. But she WASN’T GOING TO ——————– at least, he BELIEVED she wouldn’t. Not this time.
Within a few moments, he was sat in the corner beside her. But it wasn’t enough, and slowly, CAREFULLY, with a little effort, he lifted himself OUT of the wheelchair, rather unceremoniously COLLAPSING onto the floor. Dragged himself back BESIDE HER against the wall. Breathe. He was FINE. This was fine. )
“ ——————————– I’m NOT HIM… “
( Quiet words, spoken EVER-SO-DELICATELY, because it didn’t take a GENIUS to figure it out, and he was certainly that AND MORE. When they had first met, he had SENSED IT, a deep trauma to her. She had recognized the feeling, the feeling of another INSIDE HER HEAD. Someone like him had been in there, MUDDLED EVERYTHING UP, and that… that PAIN… he couldn’t fix that. It was something which Jessica would have to figure out ON HER OWN. All he could do, was make a few things ABUNDANTLY CLEAR. )
“ And I’m not here to help you. TRUTH BE TOLD, I can’t ——————– not unless you WANT ME TO. What I’m here for, is to listen, and promise you that I will NEVER HURT YOU. And, if you feel like, one day, you could… you CAN TRUST ME. “
he approaches, makes his case & she listens.
one thing she’s learned from her job is how different each person can be from one another. motivations, experiences, reactions, all having subtly matching to a different beat. intricacies in the human collective make the species as a whole varied. no two people are precisely alike. knowing that, though, doesn’t make it any easier for her to trust other people. especially not someone capable of doing what xavier can. what KILGRAVE can. that’s the only similarity she requires in order for them both to seem the same. a flawed, broken perspective, she knows. but one that’s there nonetheless.
emotionally fatigued, but markedly calm (at least in comparison to a few moments ago), jessica stays leaned against the wall in the corner of her dingy, cheap apartment. her back is to him, like she’s trying to forget who’s talking to her altogether. just to make it easier. “ that’s an easy promise to make, is’t it? “ she asks, pulling her knees up to her chest & wrapping both arms around them. a deep inhale through her nose, palm coming up to wipe at her nostrils before it falls back to her legs.
jones lets her head drop down, tired of the effort in keeping it up. “ he raped me. “ she says plainly, almost void of emotion. even now, though, she finds herself searching for the right way to describe it. “ over … & over … & over again. “ it’s a muddy trek back through disgusting, hazy memories. “ but. he … MADE me want it. i obviously didn’t, & i never did, but it FELT like i did. there’s nothing so confusing, so disgusting, & so thoroughly … intrusive. invasive. horrible. & … he … FORCED me … to beg for it. “ now she seems hollow, empty, tears listlessly falling & crashing against the wooden floorboards. “ he forced me to do a lot of things. for him, to him; to others people. “ nails idly carve into the flesh of her knee, a bit of blood smearing over pale skin. “ he kept me for months. & every night, he’d … “
words trail off, since she doesn’t need to elaborate on that topic any further. he can probably guess where that’d been going. “ he also utilized my … gifts. i broke arms for his amusement, legs, fingers. not mine, obviously, i was too valuable to him. & he, uh … “ all she can see now is her face. reva connors. “ made me kill a woman. punched her hard enough in the chest to kill her instantly. “
out of all the things she’s revealed in this little sit down, it’s that aspect which compels her voice to break. “ & kilgrave, he, “ choking back a sob, she searches for the words, grasping them before they float away into darkness, “ he didn’t even … REALIZE what he’d done. that’s probably the most disgusting, terrifying part. when i told him that he’d raped me, he was shocked. genuinely, truly shocked. motherfucker … “ she tucks back a strand of messy hair. “ he insisted that i misunderstood his orders. so he tried to blame me for killing that woman. “
now she slowly turns to face xavier, eyes bloodshot & looking like a mess. “ so, telling me that you’d never hurt me? it’s all too clear that it’s just a matter of perspective. & i have no idea what your’s might be like. & when someone can just … DECIDE that their own way is the right one? “ she shakes her head, closes her eyes. “ that makes it difficult to trust anyone that can do what he could. “
Triggering topics are acceptable as long as they’re tagged.
Written by Michi
O O C .
Mun and muse are both of age.
I reply at the speed of molasses, and I do prioritize threads that click with me the best.
This blog will be loaded with spoilers! Jessica Jones spoilers will NOT be tagged starting January, 2016. Any movie in theaters or between theaters and home release WILL be tagged. Spoilers for TV Shows will ALSO be tagged.
I am available on skype, though I might be spotty. Anyone is free to add me, just be sure to tell me who you are or I’ll assume you’re a spam bot! My skype is {the.yummy.michi}
Mun and muse are separate! While Jessica and I have our similarities, we also have many differences. Don’t assume that Jessica is speaking on my behalf.
F O L L O W I N G .
This blog is selective!
The reason for me choosing not to follow someone is mine alone.
It takes me a long time to look through my followers. So if you have followed me in the past month or two, I likely haven’t seen it yet. My follower count frequently fluctuates, and I’m lazy, so it is not something I keep up with regularly.
I will prioritize mutuals, but I will also interact with non-mutuals.
Just because I don’t follow you doesn’t mean you aren’t welcome to interact with me or send me an ask.
F E E L F R E E T O...
Remind me about an RP! Just be reasonable and understanding.
Tag me in a starter or send me an ask!
Reply to my open posts
Add me on skype, or message me to plan a thread
Ask the mun or muse questions
Become a friend of mine!
Offer constructive criticism.
Give feedback.
D O N O T ...
Be judgmental.
Attempt to force a ship onto me.
Attempt to force smut onto me.
Be rude, or generally insulting/unpleasant (OOC).
I N T E R A C T I O N S
I am open to one liners, Para, Multi-Para and even Novella length threads! The latter, however, will take longer for me to reply to under most circumstances.
Crack is welcome and encouraged!
I prefer that my partners be literate! This isn’t to sound cruel, but I find it difficult to follow posts in which I cannot understand what is happening.
You do not need to match length, but be reasonable. If I post a paragraph, or multi-paragraph, open starter and you reply with a single line, I will ignore it. There are exceptions, but I’ll leave you to determine these for yourselves.
NSFW will happen eventually! Whether it be smut, gore, ect.
I am very open to ideas and cross-fandom interaction! I also welcome OCs.
Dark topics, ones that typical are identified as triggers, are welcome here as long as they are tagged! Very few things bother me and I’m actually deeply intrigued by the darker side of literature. As long as subjects are handled appropriately, then I am willing to give it a shot.
Unless it is properly justified, your muse should not know every detail about Jessica’s life! Your muse should not have information that isn’t publicly available, unless there is an acceptable reason for it.
I tend to avoid OC Relatives to my muse. I can make exceptions, though, at my own discretion. Contact me before interacting.
I reply to some people faster than others. Please, do not take it personally. More often than not, it is because my muse takes me to certain threads before others. Whether it be because of the character, the writing style, or because I know the mun ooc.
No godmodding.
S H I P P I N G
This is a multiship blog.
All relationships exist in separate timelines/universes/ect. Unless stated otherwise.
I may eventually have a "Main Ship".
Chemistry comes before everything! I have my ships, but it should work on both ends before anyone makes it a thing.
Smut is not a necessity! I’m perfectly fine with including it, but it is, by no means, a requirement.
Smut does NOT equal a ship.
There should be some sort of development before a ship begins!
I DO have exclusive ships, which means I will not ship with a duplicate of the muse. See below.
E X C L U S I V I T Y
Generally, I do interact with duplicates of other muses. HOWEVER, it is entirely possible for me to have an exclusive ship partner or an exclusive partner of a certain muse. What’s this mean? Simply put, if I have an exclusive ship partner, then I will not ship with a duplicate of that muse. I will interact with duplicates of that muse, hell they might even sleep together. But the pair will NOT end up in a relationship. THIS IS A FLEXIBLE RULE. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT IT, THEN SIMPLY ASK. If I have an exclusive RP partner, then that means I will not interact with a duplicate of that muse.
L A S T L Y ...
This looks and sounds like a lot. I know that. But, really, this blog is super lax. So don’t let the wall of text steer you away any. Don’t be afraid to just jump in and have fun.
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